Axel

.... wow, well... I guess its a good thing I dont wear the things.. never missed what I never had but...

I got a pair of lacy panties I'm not planning on using, so uh.... would the owner take 'em back?

So... uh... wow...

Things havent really changed, but I'm digging the new 'do.

.... stuff like this... doesnt happen OFTEN here, right?

Roxas, did you switch with Sora, because that'll totally mess with me.

[ooc: body switch with Reno. Lawl]

Alright, so I got assigned a dorm. My roomie's.... Kyou Kusa-something. Still kinda new to this place, and there's only so much a guy can figure out from just wondering around. Havent even seen the guy yet.

I'm totally new to this school business too... I get we got classes... like there's a Survey of the Arts class, that hey, I thought would be fun. I could appreciate some art, right? (Could help with the whole 'no heart' thing). It meets up around 8-10 in the morning. First of all, 8's WAY too darn early for me to really care... which is why I was glad it was 8-10. I showed up at 9:30... and, well... got scolded because I guess I missed most of the class. So APPARENTLY, it means I need to SHOW UP at 8... not stroll in anytime in between. Man. Not cool. Anyone have that class at another time? I can still transfer out if I need to.

Roxas, what does your day look like tomorrow?

...Second chances, huh? Thats an idea I can get used to.

So, the name's Axel. Got it memorized? This place... its a little weird, isnt it? Guess I'm not one to really talk, considering where I've been.

Hey Roxas, you around here, pal? I apped to the ATI thing. Guess its worth looking into. I feel like I'm here so I am here, right? Man, all this business about hearts and whether I exist or not really gives me a headache sometimes. Somehow it made sense when Roxas was around, but man, I have to say I feel pretty disoriented.

....Hairdresser. They have me doing hair. Are they INSANE? Man, I can hardly handle my own hair, needless to say mess with anyone else's. I dont even know what to think of this. I'll try my best, I guess.... and I'll just have to get good at it. Man, what a pain.

Miss seeing a certain someone every time I go in for work too. And home's been kinda quiet. I still feel a little off....

I think I'm coming down with something, my head's spinning.

...Man, that was...

I dont know where I've been for the past couple of weeks.

I feel like I passed out somewhere and then woke up. I felt like I was fading away...

Shit, this scares me... Was I on the verge of getting terminated? Whats wrong with me?

[Private]
All I want to do... is see Roxas...

Well, everything's going pretty good... Work's better than ever.

Except for one thing.

( Private/Filter to Friends and Lovers )

Went to work this morning and I got propositioned at least five times before getting to my dressing room. Three from the cutie model girls who hold the cases (they all got mad at the same time and started a big cat fight... haha! That was fun! But.. yeah, I did walk away), once from one of the camera men (A little awkward, I couldnt even look at the guy during the show today, since he was making eyes at me), and the last one from a girl who brings me my coffee (you know, I dont remember if she officially had a job here or not, which kind of creeps me out a bit). Either I'm looking damn fine today, or something fun got released into the air again.

The stuff didnt effect me much before, but I guess I have an excuse now if I say anything out of line or inappropriate, huh? With that said, I'm going to have my lunch... and laugh at the possibilities.

God I miss Paine.

Roxas, I'm having you when I get home.

Its almost been a year here in Ares. The job's still going strong, things with Roxas.. well.. I cant complain! I think I'm ready for something else.. something to happen, something to change! Everything is so ordinary... well, minus things with Roxas.. with him, its never dull

I think I might start on a couple projects of my own...

( Private )

Its been quiet. Real quiet. For a while there, I kinda went with it... went with the flow, but life starts becoming a drag when you do that. Before you know it, you become a zombie going on auto pilot: go to sleep, eat, go to work, go sleep at work, do a show, bother Paine, eat, go back home.

Things've gotten pretty comfortable with the boy too... since school started for him again, I stopped seeing him as often as I used to. I feel like a damn puppy... I find myself missing him and waiting for him. What a life.

'Havent seen Dem in a while either. We were off to cause some mischief, but I guess when I'm not working and being with Roxas, Demyx's been busy with the horses. I still think the horses smell like ass.

Man, work's been going nuts lately. Its summer, so we have all this promotional stuff to do for the show and for the station. They're using me just about every chance they can get. I.. really miss Roxas. Demyx too. (Where you BEEN, buddy? I got all this mischief and nothing to do with it!! ;D)

Man, I really need some time just to kick back... but nope. Work work work. I'm about ready to set someone on fire, seriously! *laughs* Lets see how they'd like THAT promotion for the station!!!

At least I got some nice scenery at work

So its been a while since I've updated this thing. Things are going pretty good. Work has been getting fun again, and I'm talking to Paine. It felt weird distancing myself... theres no problem being friends.

And DEMYX IS BACK!
I'm so glad he didnt fade away... I was torn apart when I heard he disappeared..
I'm going to see him pretty soon. I cant wait!!!

( Private )

Man, I'm so freaking glad to be a guy again. Once I went through the full transformation the producers milked it for what it was worth... so uh... yeah now I have a closet full of short skirts and knee high boots. Any takers? I aint wearing that stuff again.

Its nice to be back. but I'm going to miss Roxas' glorious boobage ;D

( Private )

Its a freaking blizzard outside *grin* I'm sure Nin's just loving it! I've been kinda sticking around in my apartment, cleaning up... even though I really could go anywhere I want... but where would I want to go? I mean, the weather's insane.

I havent really spoken to Roxas since that weird thing over at the studio... I really miss him... I know theres a lot that I want to tell him and talk about.

Man, the weather is definately freaking out. I can still go to work... but whats the point if everyone is more or less stuck at home?

...What sucks the most is... Demyx is gone. I have no idea where he went and... I've been hearing about these random disappearances and I guess he was one of the ones to go. Damn it... why.... seriously, if I had a heart... it'd be breaking. I hope he still exists somewhere... and that he was just moved somewhere else. I hate the idea of anything bad happening to the guy.

Speaking of which, Vexen is gone too... which is also really lame because I was just seconds away from clearing my conscience about what I did to him. Guess some things arent supposed to fade, huh...

Stay someplace cool tonight...

Alright, so this weird holiday's coming up... and its supposed to celebrate feelings of love or something.

In the end, it gets me kinda thinking about... well...everything I have pushed aside this year. Love is one interesting emotion, and I have to say-- so far, I havent found anything bad about it. At least, recently, not on my end. I've been real content with everything, and its been pretty nice.

We keep getting newcomers, and I'm really hoping that they're all getting settled alright. I really have been having trouble getting some free time... but, I plan on taking it easy this coming week.

Work eased up a bit. After bitching out one of the producers about having me make up for THEIR fault, they are finally just letting me do my thing and letting the show run its course. I finally feel sorta back to normal at work now. I just hope that they stay off my back... otherwise I aint going to be happy.

In other news, I met with that Eliwood guy and took care of my taxes. One less thing to worry about.

I'm starting to look around for things to do around in Ares... and I got reminded about the karaoke bar. ;D I still need to check that place out...

Other than work and all that... I'm still.. kinda... well... frustrated.

Long story short.. its hard to have to hold myself every damn time. I need to talk to a certain spikey-haired brunette.

...Speaking of which: Sora. I think I got a job arranged for you. Stop by the studio when you can.

Alright, so I found out today some weird things with the cases were going on in the show. I dont know what the HELL the producers might be doing, but they definately didnt discuss anything like that to me. Seriously... sometimes those guys really tick me off. Someone needs to manage things better...

So... now I got all this pressure now to bring up the ratings. *laughs* Not that it's going to be hard... I usually can stir up a pretty good crowd.

And... another one of my old co-workers showed up in this place. I... sorta kinda feel bad about what I did to him in the past... I cant have that hovering over my head, especially when I found who I was looking for here..

... and in other news...
Its hard not talking about it. I'm really happy...

I think I've been working waaay too much, or at least more than I'd want to the past couple of days. Oh, Sora :D I think I got a job for you at the studio. I worked out a little deal with the producers of the show and the people in the station. You're welcome!!

The other day me and Paine got to talking a lot, and she got me thinking about a couple of things. It was nice to actually have some time with her, I mean... at work, we really don't get a chance to talk much.

( Private to Paine )

I don't need to show up to work tomorrow. I smell a lazy day coming up ;D